hope is the thing with feathers

the answer is obviously: EBAY!

:D?

anybody want some Vertigo Fables

or

a pair of silver heels, size 11 B

?

I've got almost enough to pay for my meds + food until the end of the month. Thank you for helping me out, I appreciate it so much. I have been super careful with my Percocet but now I'm out and there's a storm coming so I huuuurt! :( But I'm going to the doctor tomorrow and should get my prescriptions written - I just need a bit more to fill them. I am guessing I need about $50-$75 more and I can pay for everything.

If you can help, it would be great. my paypal is anthony.melissa (at) rocketmail (dot) com.

My youngest son has been here since Saturday now. It is so great to spend time with him. I don't think I ever told you guys about what happened during the winter holidays with DJ. I tried to write & post about it a couple of times, but I couldn't really get through it all, even in writing and taking breaks and stuff. But anyway, DJ isn't here and we're not really talking to each other, mostly because he's taken to being the Worst Teenager Ever, or fulfilling every single stereotype of hateful teenagers. It's painful, but at least Zach doesn't hate me... yet. :\

ok, I'm not actually passing a hat this time. I will pay you back on the 1st! But I need $25 so I'll have enough to get my med tomorrow or tuesday at the latest.

soooo...

anybody want to send me a few bucks with the guarantee of getting it back on the 1st? doesn't have to be the whole 25, a few dollars here or there would really help.

(I went a few days without the meds to see if I could do without, hoping I could hold out on my own until the 1st... it didn't work out well for me OR my brain.)

(post is open in case you want to direct someone here who can help)

(thank you, and I'm really really sorry I keep doing this)

paypal is anthony.melissa@rocketmail.com

BIG HONKING EDIT: thanks to my flist, I now have the money to buy my meds tomorrow. THANK YOU. I'm so grateful for you guys and your generosity. I've been blessed.

my life is ridiculous sometimes. SERIOUSLY.

This morning I started with $33 in cash and a tiny tupperware container of change.

I went to the doctor (my medicaid ends tomorrow, so doc visit + meds was a must!) and paid $2 for my copay.

Then I went to Walmart for groceries. I poured my change into the coinstar machine and got $28.03! I diligently went through the store buying food for the next few days (to tide us over until Meg's SSI is available on the debit card), adding up every nickel. When I got to the checkout, the grocery bill was $58.19. I ended up with 84 cents in change! \o/

UNFORTUNATELY, once I got home and changed Meg, I opened up a new pack of diapers and realized it is the LAST PACK WE HAVE.

We have to make 12 diapers last until I can get to the store on the 1st. (also, for some weird wrongheaded budgeting/planning reason, we have 8 unopened cartons - a dozen boxes per carton, I think? - of wipes)

ANYWAY, there's a thing. GoFundMe. Because I need a computer and money other than computer money will definitely be medical expenses money (I actually went through this in a protected entry, but tl;dr is that I will now be spending $200 a month for doc visits + meds. I hope to make the money myself, but I need the computer for this...)

Here, have a widget:



link in case the flash widget doesn't work for you: http://www.gofundme.com/5wzruw

(I changed the art I used on the page thanks to a LJ user's comment that the original art was offputting. I was proud of the art, a vector painting I did a while back, but I like this one too and it's a frog and is more 'me' since my personality is quite green. :D?

I am seriously starting to panic. Remember my last post? Maybe not. I'll just recap:

storm. repairs. money desperately needed.

So anyway, the insurance company says our deductible is $500. Where the FUCK are we going to get $500? And that's on top of the $200 I owe the electric company on the 1st, else our electric will be put out on the 2nd. Yeah, I missed a payment because we are BROKE. Okay, I will pay the electric out of Meg's check on the 1st, which will leave me with less than $200 to pay for the repairs. And school clothes. And Meg's shoes are falling apart. UGH.

If you can help in any way, please do. just a few dollars here and there might make a big dent in what we owe.

paypal is anthony DOT melissa AT rocketmail.com

MRI went well. It was an open one this time, so I wasn't TRAPPED even though I was strapped to a weird neck brace.

I'm dizzy, but schemingreader just pointed out to me that MRIs make lots of people dizzy.

I'm at that point in the year where I'm worried about going back to school. I took this semester off because of my back and was grateful I DID take off because of all the problems we've been having with Meg. It's been a bad six months.

But now I'm going 'wow, I don't know if I can do it' and also there's the thing where our food stamps get cut in half if I'm in school and we really can't afford that. Last time we barely got by, and I had help from you guys financially. So I don't know.

Also, my head is fucked up. Not really badly, I can function day to day, but I don't know how well I'd do in school. It might be good for me and it might be terrible.

I did really well last semester. I made the Dean's List. I had fun learning, even when I felt like I was barely holding on. But I did it. I don't know. I need to think some more.

The state of America at the moment is not what keeps me awake at night. ( Read more... )

( I cut my hair and here's proof! )

my mom is mad at me. she says when I'm manic that it's hell.

I guess I should go to a salon tomorrow and see if they can make it more mom-friendly. on wednesday I'm going to meg's school and mom doesn't want to be embarrassed, I guess.

I feel much better than I did this morning, thanks to you guys, here and in IM.

also, I bought an interfaith haggadah. spending money you don't have is a symptom of bipolar, too. mania.

I told mom I bought it and now she's mad because I was supposed to buy a fan for meg's room. I forgot.

tell me something awesome?

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life is pretty sucky lately.