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Went to the doctor today and together we decided I should go back on lithium. I am kinda excited, since I did well on it for a long time. But when I got to the pharmacy, I was $80 short, so I couldn't get my ritalin. But I got everything else, yay! :D?
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I've got almost enough to pay for my meds + food until the end of the month. Thank you for helping me out, I appreciate it so much. I have been super careful with my Percocet but now I'm out and there's a storm coming so I huuuurt! :( But I'm going to the doctor tomorrow and should get my prescriptions written - I just need a bit more to fill them. I am guessing I need about $50-$75 more and I can pay for everything.

If you can help, it would be great. my paypal is anthony.melissa (at) rocketmail (dot) com.

My youngest son has been here since Saturday now. It is so great to spend time with him. I don't think I ever told you guys about what happened during the winter holidays with DJ. I tried to write & post about it a couple of times, but I couldn't really get through it all, even in writing and taking breaks and stuff. But anyway, DJ isn't here and we're not really talking to each other, mostly because he's taken to being the Worst Teenager Ever, or fulfilling every single stereotype of hateful teenagers. It's painful, but at least Zach doesn't hate me... yet. :\
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I only have $75 until the 1st of the month, and I have to pay for a doctor visit and food and meds. these are all important because my son is coming to visit and having food and my meds is a big deal (an even bigger deal than usual) while he's here.

I could really use some help. I really, really hate asking. But we need to eat and I need to not be in pain or having panic attacks and insomnia, you know?

Paypal is anthony.melissa (at) rocketmail (dot) com.

(and if you can't help financially, maybe you could point some people here?)


Mar. 23rd, 2014 10:34 pm
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ok, I'm not actually passing a hat this time. I will pay you back on the 1st! But I need $25 so I'll have enough to get my med tomorrow or tuesday at the latest.


anybody want to send me a few bucks with the guarantee of getting it back on the 1st? doesn't have to be the whole 25, a few dollars here or there would really help.

(I went a few days without the meds to see if I could do without, hoping I could hold out on my own until the 1st... it didn't work out well for me OR my brain.)

(post is open in case you want to direct someone here who can help)

(thank you, and I'm really really sorry I keep doing this)

paypal is

BIG HONKING EDIT: thanks to my flist, I now have the money to buy my meds tomorrow. THANK YOU. I'm so grateful for you guys and your generosity. I've been blessed.
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my back hurts, so I'm in pain a lot and then if I take my pain meds I can't sleep. I have a feeling I just told you all this recently, but it has to be said again. my sleep schedule is all kinds of fucked up from the Percocet messing with me, but if I don't take it I'm in so much pain it doesn't matter.

so I got very little sleep last night, and all day I was grumpy, but mom insisted on talking to me. the more she talked, the grumpier I got.

one thing I did today was turn the ringer off the phone. the land line, since I have no cell.

but anyway, hopefully I'll be able to get some sleep tonight. if not... idk, you guys.


(tons of comments and emails to answer, but I just can't do it right now.)

love meme

Dec. 14th, 2012 05:24 pm
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I didn't put my name in for the last one, or the one before that, or the one before that. But I self-nommed for this one because I like to be appreciated sometimes and I like that this one's on DW. (I also love the way this meme is going. such thoughtful comments!)

My thread is here.
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Pick a character I've written and I will explain the top five ideas/concepts/etc I keep in mind while writing that character that I believe are essential to accurately depicting them.

OR I will just blather about that character without a 'top five'. I suck at lists. Also, I suck at canon characterizations so this might be good for me. or bad. let's see!
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1. I am not in a mental institution. Feminism has a lot to do with that. A not-so-distant ancestor was put into an asylum and given shock treatment on a regular basis because of her 'nervous disorder' or whatever they called it. Many women in the past were sent to asylums -- horrible places where they were abused horribly, drugged into zombiehood, and given dangerous 'treatments' for simply acting outside the social norms. So I definitely would have gone in one of those institutions, for my manic depression (bipolar disorder), for my forward thinking, for my accusing my husband of violence, for my burgeoning lesbianism. Oh, yes. Sexuality outside the patriarchal norm MUST be punished treated. Women must only be passive vessels for a man's sexuality! UGH.

2. I was able to file for divorce to get out of an abusive relationship. Not only that, but I was given counselling that helped me become a stronger woman, to recognize how the patriarchy shapes domestic violence, to think outside the little box I was given and to crawl out and become a full person with her own agency and everything!

3. I can vote! Does this need elaboration? I have an actual voice in my local, state, and federal governments. I can help elect people, men and women, who support women's issues. Feminism gave me choices. I don't even have to vote for strong feminist candidates, I could vote for conservatives! But it's MY choice. Not someone else saying I'm too weak-minded to understand politics and government.

4. Sex! I can masturbate without feeling like a deviant. I can own toys and use them liberally. They're made just for me! I can have orgasms. I know what orgasms are. I know how to have them. I know I can have more than one. When having sex with a partner, we have fun. I can have fun having sex without being looked at as one of those bad girls.

5. I can think and am not regularly criticized for thinking. Feminism hasn't told me how to think, just taught me that I can. I can think about me and you. I can think about people I don't know. I can think about oppression within my own experience and I can try to understand oppression outside my experience. Feminism has been a gateway to other movements. Because of feminism, I learned about race and ethnicity issues, queer issues, disability issues, and many more. My eyes are a lot more open than they used to be. Sometimes I (still) have a kneejerk reaction to people pointing out my own icky race and/or gender residue, but I try to be open and listen and yes, I'm still at the listening stage in some ways.
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This looks like FUN.

Give me a fandom/pairing (moresomes or gen if you'd rather) and a number. I'll tell you all about how it would go/write you a snippet/a bit of both! Avengers, Sherlock, mayyyybe Inception and XMFC. But definitely Avengers and Sherlock and of course I will always write anything involving MIKEYWAY.

1. genderswap
2. bodyswap
3. drunk!fic
4. huddling for warmth
5. pretending to be married
6. secretly a virgin
7. amnesia
8. cross-dressing
9. forced to share a bed
10. truth or dare
11. historical AU
12. accidental-baby-acquisition
13. apocalypse fic
14. telepathy
15. High School / College AU
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okay, there is this meme. and I was thinking: can I really do this meme? I hide like a turtle and stay distant from a lot of people. I've gotten to where I only IM with like, 3 people, where I used to stay in touch with my flist really well. I've gotten hermit-like. I hardly ever even read my flist/circle anymore because it feels like pressure to participate and acknowledge people. I DON'T KNOW. WHAT AM I SAYING. so I will do this meme, and if I need help I will scour your journal and come up with the answers with research. so there. I can do this. I need to do this in order to function as a human being in fandom, right? maybe not that dire. but still. I should do this. making an effort is important.

Comment and I will ...

1. Tell you why I friended you. If I remember.
2. Associate you with something.
3. Tell you something I like about you.
4. Tell you a memory I have of you.
5. Associate you with a character/pairing.
6. Ask something I've always wanted to know about you.
7. Tell you my favorite userpic of yours.
8. Tell you that you must post this in your own journal.
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1. Wild Thyme Honey by me and [personal profile] schemingreader
Snarry fic. I am surprised that this is number one because it's the newest/latest fic I've worked on. It's pretty awesome, but most of the awesomeness is owed to [personal profile] schemingreader. She has pointed out to me that the reason it has so many hits might be because it wasn't posted anywhere else, just AO3.

2.Triptych by me and [ profile] ladycat777
Another collaboration. This is a Xander/Spike/Angel fic with daddy kink that was supposed to get even dirtier, but we never finished it. It's funny that it has so many hits when it's a perpetual WIP. And that leads me to the next fic...

3. Cannonball
John/Rodney. Another perpetual WIP -- in other words, it's never going to be finished. At least, I don't think it will.

4. A Little Bit More (But Not Too Much) by me and [ profile] ladycat777
More John/Rodney. I loooove this fic. I'm glad it's in the top ten.

5. Beg Me For It
due South fic! I am proud of it. It incorporates my favorite things, like amnesia and D/s. I think I made it work.

6. Attention Whore
HP fic. More Snarry, this time short and sweet. I wrote it quickly for [ profile] abstractconcept several years ago, and I'm happy it is still being enjoyed by folks.

7. A Point of Vulnerability
Okay, in 2009 I went through a phase where I was REALLY into Kirk/McCoy. So I wrote this and a couple of other fics, and they were well received. \o/?

8. Hyperspace: Refresher Course by me and [ profile] wesleysgirl
John/Rodney. another collaboration, whee! I think we meant for this one to be the first of a series, but for some reason we never actually did that. it stands just fine on its own, though.

9. Cycle of Souls
MCR. This is my baby. I'm really happy that it's on this list.

10. The Serendipity Effect
Another one of the Kirk/McCoy fics I wrote. There's a transporter accident and stuff happens.

I'm just happy people still like what I write. \o/ I don't know, am I supposed to do some more navel gazing here?

Tell you what: if you have a question about any of my fics, just ask and I will be happy to drone on and on about them.


Aug. 14th, 2011 03:40 pm
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"If I made Cinderella, the audience would immediately be looking for a body in the coach." Alfred Hitchcock

If I wrote a story today, you would immediately look for ...?
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okay, so yesterday I finally took steps to get on disability. I can't do everything I need online, but everything I *could* do online I did. wheeeeeeee. I read over it when I was done and was surprised at how disabled I really am. wow.


ANYWAY. I want to write today. or at least try to.

okay, to make it interesting...

leave a prompt in the form of a youtube link. the video could be of just a song, a kickass music video, a fanvid, or a scene. (or something else! idk!) I will attempt to write a ficlet based on the video.


my chemical romance
harry potter
wizards of waverly place*
stargate: atlantis
due south

*I am all caught up on WoWP and can I just say eeeeeeeee on Wizards vs. Angels? I want alllll the AU fic in the world where *SPOILER SPOILER* and there is Justin/Alex/Rosie sex. btw, it's almost my birthday, so if you want to write justin/alex fic for me, you are WELCOME TO IT. (also any fic featuring vampires, soulmates, soulbonds, telepathy, amnesia, and other stuff I like would be nice. or you could RP those things with me. hit me up on AIM!)

anyway, leave me a prompt and I will try to write! no matter that I haven't written anything since november and didn't even finish that.
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Out of utter curiosity, if I was chained up in your attic/study/basement/library/secret lair, and I had to write you one story, what would you request? (demand?) Or alternatively, what's something you always hoped I'd write but know is never going to happen?


Writing is hard. But if you answer this meme, I might write a few paragraphs from this imaginary fic and share it with you. :D?
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To the first five people who comment to this post, I will gift you with something of my own crafting. It may be an icon, a manip, a drawing, a ficlet, or something completely random. You may love it or you may think it sucks, but regardless, it will be made with love for you from me. ;) Feel free to give me a hint of what you might like (ship, character, actor/actress, fandom, color, etc).

The catch? You must pay it forward and post this in your journal so you can gift 5 of your friends with special gifts made by you.

So just leave a comment. It doesn't matter what fandom you choose or whether I'm familiar with it or not, I can make an icon or write a drabble for pretty much anything. :)


May. 6th, 2010 04:29 pm
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1. Comment to this and I will give you 3 people. [Tell me if you want to play]
2. Post this meme with your answers.
3. Provide pictures and the names of the 3 people.
4. Label which you would shag, marry and throw off a cliff

[personal profile] turlough is EVIL. She gave me Gerard, Mikey, and Ray. SIGH. If I MUST.

cut for pics and answers! )
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We're home, hooray! I wanted to do one of those getting to know you memes, but I'm too tired. Instead, I will answer questions. So leave your question in the poll and I'll get to it later.

Poll #2973 ask me anything
Open to: Registered Users, detailed results viewable to: All, participants: 3

ask me anything


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2 (66.7%)

1 (33.3%)

3 (100.0%)

I love you!
2 (66.7%)

2 (66.7%)

Also, my birthday is in 5 days. I'm going to be 32. I usually buy myself something awesome for my birthday, but this hospital trip sucked up all our money. So, like. If you want, you could write me fic. :D?



You don't have to. It was just a suggestion.


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