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Jan. 18th, 2025 09:01 amposting this to my DW because I don't feel like being reblogged on Tumblr.
I think one of the things I'm feeling over the Neil Gaiman thing is grief. I gave my oldest son some of his works, and it was a thing I did for him on several birthdays and Christmases. Now I just... I don't know. Here was this act of love, wanting to share interests and art with my son, and it feels so gross now. Tainted. But then again that seems like I'm making it all about my relationship with my son and not the pain and trauma of the victims. So then I feel guilt.
I think one of the things I'm feeling over the Neil Gaiman thing is grief. I gave my oldest son some of his works, and it was a thing I did for him on several birthdays and Christmases. Now I just... I don't know. Here was this act of love, wanting to share interests and art with my son, and it feels so gross now. Tainted. But then again that seems like I'm making it all about my relationship with my son and not the pain and trauma of the victims. So then I feel guilt.