hope is the thing with feathers

Daylight licked me into shape
I must have been asleep for days
And moving lips to breathe her name
I opened up my eyes
And found myself alone alone
Alone above a raging sea
That stole the only girl I loved
And drowned her deep inside of me

Yes, I'm listening to The Cure.

I can't wait for the new True Blood tonight. Nicca and Adam are coming over to watch it with me. Awesome! Did I mention that they are roommates now? I hope it works out well for them. I think I might smell a bit of romance in the air for them as well. At least, that is how it seems. I haven't seen them together in about a week, so I will know better when I see them interact tonight.

Someone on OKCupid actually messaged me BACK. I am excited. One of these days I'm going to have a significant other again, and it's going to rock. Hopefully.

I've been really crazy in the brain lately and I want to apologize to people I've whined to about it. On the other hand, I want to thank the people like Amy who always listen and offer hugs and don't judge me for being mentally ill. It is good to have friends like her.

Adam came over and I'm feeling better. Just talking has helped a LOT.

Meg went to the doctor today because her toe was all bloody and weird. She has a slight infection, so the doctor gave her some antibiotics.

Did I mention I'm feeling better? I don't want to die anymore, and my mood is up. My head still feels scrambled, but at least I'm talking in complete sentences again.

Thank you for all the hugs and good thoughts.

Another good day! I've been doing the twitter thing more often. I need more people on my twitter feed. Add me! https://twitter.com/xanphibian

My computer is completely fried. I get it back tomorrow from the place. Hopefully.

Money problems. Blah. Paying to have my computer fixed is NOT HELPING.

Going out with Adam tonight. Hopefully we'll see Sherlock Holmes, but I'm not sure we'll get there on time.

Doing the OKC thing again, and I also signed up for match.com. I'll let you know if anything pans out. Mostly I just want to date different people and have fun.

I guess that's all. Love you all. :)

I went to the chiropractor yesterday and I'm going back again today. Yesterday I found out that what I thought was sciatica (shooting pain down my leg, ow) was really bursitis and I've had an inflamed muscle in my hip and thigh for years and didn't know what it was. Apparently with some exercises I can make it all better! I still have something wrong with my lower back though, and today when I go back I'm going to find out what my x-rays say about it and hopefully get a little relief.

In Jew classes I've been studying the three weeks, the destruction of the temples, and Tisha B'Av. I just finished reading a long commentary on Lamentations. Torah study is FUN, even when the subject matter is something like mourning.

The boys have been with me for the past two weeks. Jerry is supposed to pick them up today, but I don't know if he's actually going to or not. It's been fun. (and a little crazy) Adam has come over a lot and helped me with them. They actually listen to Adam. I don't know why they don't listen to me. :\

I applied to go back to college this fall. I am worried I won't get in because the last time I went my GPA was abysmal. I'm not talking about it much because it makes me nervous.

eta: OH AND. I haven't smoked in two weeks! \o/

w00t! After three weeks of being depressed, my up has finally come! Now I just have to cram as much stuff into what time I have while I'm energized and motivated as I can.

I finally went and saw Star Trek today with Adam. Adam is in love with me, or at least he thinks he is. It's all very uncomfortable because I just want to be friends. It kind of sucks for him but it's not that easy for me, either.

I also bought 4 new Terry Pratchett books at the bookstore. Well, not new, but definitely new to me as I haven't read him before this past week. I was dragging my heels, I know.

SOOOO many things to do this weekend. Yay!