hope is the thing with feathers

I added this to my sticky post as well. Just an easy way to (monetarily) say hi, thanks, or help me out $3 at a time. I'm not doing HORRIBLY, or WELL, but I'm doing. Getting disability has helped tremendously, but a little extra cash would help more. I'm saving up to get some more dental work. Going through years of depression is hell on the teeth. Also I'm still trying to get a little money to give mom because we had to replace the heat/air unit and she put it on a credit card.

Fannish update: I'm writing a LOT lately. Still in Teen Wolf fandom, where I've been since 2012. A lot of people have moved on from that fandom, but it's got a grip on me. I'm currently writing like a dozen fics at once, lol. I love it. I've thought a little about trying my hand at original stories, but they never interest me the way fanfic does. I suppose I could try to file the serial numbers off something, but the only fic I can think of that I could do that with wasn't very popular to begin with, though I love the premise. Or I could rewrite something with a similar idea? Who knows! I just love fandom and fanfiction so much. There's no real reason to try to write original, really. I don't feel like I need to do something 'legit' to be a 'real writer' or anything.

I've also been making icons. I really ought to post them to comms sometimes instead of just to the challenges I make them for.
Does anyone have any icon requests? I will totally make you one. It may take a few days but I'll get to it. ASK ME. Leave a comment. Leave a pic, if you have one in mind.

Shoutout to romantical for the lovely card. Thank youuuuuu. Getting mail from you is always a treat.

being broke SUCKS SO BAD.

and medication is too damned expensive.

and I owe mom money still, I owe her money from JULY, and she hasn't even mentioned yet what I owe from after July since I haven't paid that part yet.

and then there are things I would like to buy just for myself, just a couple of little things like BB cream and new lip gloss and a bra that fits AND is comfortable. and maybe one of these days I could get a haircut because I am so sick of ponytails. but none of those things are necessities, so I hate myself every time I look on the Sephora site or browse bra sales.

so sick of this.

also. also. there are both good things and bad things about the way all the fic is on AO3 now and people post most of their other fannish things on Tumblr instead of it all being mixed up with personal RL things at a journaling site. I've been thinking about it a lot lately, because the way I interact with others has changed dramatically in the past few years, and I am mostly hating the part where I feel like making friends has become more difficult, or at least a completely different process altogether than what it used to be.

okay so one of these days I will stop talking about Leverage but that's not gonna be anytime soon.

there is an episode... I haven't watched it yet, but I was looking around Tumblr and I got um, spoiled for this episode and ( cut for a really ridiculous spoiler ) <-- no really, it's a ridiculous spoiler and I've only got it under the cut because some people. but also because discovering this particular thing should happen and I kinda want you to click that cut tag just to read this spoiler so you can understand how AMAZINGLY RIDICULOUS this show is.

the episode in question is s4e5.

I do not understand why more people didn't watch this show. Okay, so I was talking to majoline about it and she was like 'TNT made this show seem bad! the ads for it kinda sucked!' and she is so so right because I remember seeing ads for this show and even knowing that Christian Kane was in it did not sell me on it because the promos for it did not actually tell me what I actually needed to know.

It's like when I got into bandom. ( many paragraphs about prior fandoms and what hooked me into them and then there's a couple of tangents! )

I had a point in there I think. But I lost it somewhere along the way.

*scratches head*

I wrote a short Kirk/Bones fic with ladycat which is in beta right now (or will be momentarily), and now I'm writing two Gaila fics simultaneously. I can't remember the last time I wrote this much for a fandom. I'm so inspired, it's wonderful.

I have to go to the grocery store today, which means taking a shower, getting dressed, and driving to the store. All of these things are no fun. Why does the world require things like going to the store? Why can't I just be a smelly hermit with a lot of cats? >:(