hope is the thing with feathers

Got my e-cigarette in the mail yesterday! Wish me lots of luck with my quitting.

T came over yesterday. We had a great visit together.

DJ is homesick and wants to go back to his dad's.

Making friends on FetLife! Hopefully will meet someone in person soon. I'm looking forward to making more RL friends.

Driving to Gainesville today to pick up DJ and give Zach back. Not looking forward to the drive, or being away from the internet.

I have a tentative date for next week with a pretty cool guy named Thomas. Or Toby. He says his close friends and family call him Toby, so I'm calling him Toby in my head. He's an outdoorsy guy, so I don't know how well we'll get along, but so far online we get along well. He's smart and seems awesome. He's 38.

The boys are gone and the house is too quiet. :(

I really don't have anything to post other than 'boys are still here, I'm still sane'. I would be a lot saner if I could WRITE omg. I have a fic in my head and it needs to be written down! But I can't, woe. I can't concentrate enough to do anything other than RP, which takes little effort. Thank god for understanding RP/tagging partners who don't expect me to do anything other than sexy funtiems.

eta: I'm thinking of trying to stick to dreamwidth for a time, crossposting here but only reading my DW circle. If you have a DW account and post there, please subscribe to me and I'll subscribe back. My DW username is green. I added a bunch of people on my DW, but I still have tons of people I'm finding that I didn't know about.

Meg is home sick from school today, so I have all three LOUD CHILDREN in my house, driving me crazy. SEND HALP.

In other news, GERARD WAY YOU RIDICULOUS MAN. Oh guys, my love for him is infinite.

Today I am at Adam's house. He's got chickens and goats and a dog that behaves, and all kinds of cool things for the boys to get into. Right now Z is hunting arrowheads and a little while ago the boys were driving the golf cart around. I am borrowing Adam's mom's computer to post this and talk to Andrea and Kat online. I'm having a good day.

Still no news on my mom's boyfriend. It's a weird situation that I might post about locked one of these days.

I really wish I could write, but I can't do it with the kids around. My mind just won't let me. I'm so afraid I'll lost my writing mojo.

I'm so fucking horrendously anxious about Meg's upcoming tests. I don't remember if I've posted about it, but we are going to be scheduled for a five day hospital stay with her so she can have a long video EEG and an MRI. The last time we did that, it was several years ago and I had a prolonged panic attack. At least this time I will have medication and I can drug myself to the eyeballs with Ativan if need be.

Nothing much to post today. The boys are taking up a lot of my time and I can't do anything, really. I woke up this morning with my period, which means I'll be cramping all day on top of wrangling children.

We've been playing FFXIII - we played all day yesterday. It's a great game, I really like some of the new things in it, like the Paradigms.

I really wish I could write, though. But they aren't here for too long, so I should spend my time with them. Still, not writing is depressing.

I added some new people to my flist on LJ, so if you're coming to check out who friended you, um. HI! :D

Friend me back or not, I am cool about these things.

In other news, my boys are coming tomorrow! At least, that is what J says. I can't wait to see them; it's been about 6 months.

I went to the chiropractor yesterday and I'm going back again today. Yesterday I found out that what I thought was sciatica (shooting pain down my leg, ow) was really bursitis and I've had an inflamed muscle in my hip and thigh for years and didn't know what it was. Apparently with some exercises I can make it all better! I still have something wrong with my lower back though, and today when I go back I'm going to find out what my x-rays say about it and hopefully get a little relief.

In Jew classes I've been studying the three weeks, the destruction of the temples, and Tisha B'Av. I just finished reading a long commentary on Lamentations. Torah study is FUN, even when the subject matter is something like mourning.

The boys have been with me for the past two weeks. Jerry is supposed to pick them up today, but I don't know if he's actually going to or not. It's been fun. (and a little crazy) Adam has come over a lot and helped me with them. They actually listen to Adam. I don't know why they don't listen to me. :\

I applied to go back to college this fall. I am worried I won't get in because the last time I went my GPA was abysmal. I'm not talking about it much because it makes me nervous.

eta: OH AND. I haven't smoked in two weeks! \o/

And the proof is here: http://i29.tinypic.com/2wr14eu.jpg

Aren't they adorable? :D