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day 3 of depakote is working out well. I feel a lot better. I'm able to concentrate enough to read and hopefully soon that will slide into writing.

I'm really sorry for isolating lately. I get so embarrassed by my mental illness, and feeling like a waste of space, and feeling like I'm worthless... blahblah.

many many thanks to those of you who checked on me and commented to me (I was in no place to comment back, but know I appreciate it whole-heartedly)

this time around was ... really bad. for two days I was suicidal and close to going inpatient again. mom kept me sane enough to stay home.

thanks for sticking around. I love you all.