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Aug. 30th, 2013 08:34 am1. I am so lucky I have ![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
reddwarfer as a friend. A while back when we were just getting to know each other I would have said "for reasons" or "for maximum story-building power" but I can now say sincerely that she is a precious champion and supportive cheerleader for both fannish and non-fannish things, and that I admire her, rely on her, and adore her.
I have other friends who fit into this category of 'omg, how do I even deserve these people?' but they are very few, which makes them even more precious to me. (waves shyly at them without drawing too much attention, though in the future they may find their images (or their avatars, at least) carved in marble and set up in a small topiary garden outside my window, no lie)
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2. So, it is that time of year again, or at least that time of year is drawing closer and closer. Rosh Hashanah starts Wednesday night. I don't know what I'm doing for the holidays. There will be some traditional baking and prayer, but it's impossible for me to attend services and... well, leave the house, basically. Heh. It's kinda ironic that I've found a place for my spirit in a religion that is so community-based. It actually makes me cry so I will stop talking about this aspect of it all right now.
...my power just went off. luckily the computer battery is charged and I have a couple of tabs open that I wanted to reference for this post.
Because of the new year and the reflection that comes with it, I just got an email from 10Q with last year's questions and answers that I shared. It was pretty depressing and not very enlightening or comforting or cheering. :\ Mostly my answers to their questions reflect my yearning to finish my education. Which ... if you've been paying attention, is not really possible now or at least will not be possible for a long time.
One of my answers reminded me of a big emotional step I made last year (finally facing and dealing with/coming to peace with Dad's death) that was kinda overshadowed by all the medical problems we were having with Meg. So that reminder was nice.
I'm sort of struck by my last answer, though. The question is: What are your predictions for 2013? and my non-answer (which is not really a prediction, just a statement) was "I'd like to stop being alone"
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I wanted to use this space to jabber about my writing and how predictable and boring it is, but I've lost the mood. >:(
reddwarfer as a friend. A while back when we were just getting to know each other I would have said "for reasons" or "for maximum story-building power" but I can now say sincerely that she is a precious champion and supportive cheerleader for both fannish and non-fannish things, and that I admire her, rely on her, and adore her.I have other friends who fit into this category of 'omg, how do I even deserve these people?' but they are very few, which makes them even more precious to me. (waves shyly at them without drawing too much attention, though in the future they may find their images (or their avatars, at least) carved in marble and set up in a small topiary garden outside my window, no lie)
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2. So, it is that time of year again, or at least that time of year is drawing closer and closer. Rosh Hashanah starts Wednesday night. I don't know what I'm doing for the holidays. There will be some traditional baking and prayer, but it's impossible for me to attend services and... well, leave the house, basically. Heh. It's kinda ironic that I've found a place for my spirit in a religion that is so community-based. It actually makes me cry so I will stop talking about this aspect of it all right now.
...my power just went off. luckily the computer battery is charged and I have a couple of tabs open that I wanted to reference for this post.
Because of the new year and the reflection that comes with it, I just got an email from 10Q with last year's questions and answers that I shared. It was pretty depressing and not very enlightening or comforting or cheering. :\ Mostly my answers to their questions reflect my yearning to finish my education. Which ... if you've been paying attention, is not really possible now or at least will not be possible for a long time.
One of my answers reminded me of a big emotional step I made last year (finally facing and dealing with/coming to peace with Dad's death) that was kinda overshadowed by all the medical problems we were having with Meg. So that reminder was nice.
I'm sort of struck by my last answer, though. The question is: What are your predictions for 2013? and my non-answer (which is not really a prediction, just a statement) was "I'd like to stop being alone"
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3.
I wanted to use this space to jabber about my writing and how predictable and boring it is, but I've lost the mood. >:(
