need writing advice

want to cry today. yesterday, too. it has to do with my writing. I want to write so badly, but I avoid conflict so much that I can barely write it, which makes for an uninteresting story.

does anyone have any advice for me? I mean, it's me avoiding conflict, and I do the same thing IRL because I hate it.

example: mom yelling at me and listing all the things that are wrong with me. I don't stand up for myself or contradict her because that makes things worse.

so anyway, ANY conflict, be it real or imagined, makes me feel horrible. I've gotten slightly better at it in RP because it's safe and I don't feel like my RP partner will hate me for it, but I still can't do it in my fic writing.

so. advice, please. I can barely think of plots anymore because I am avoiding negative feelings and it's driving me crazy. I want to write so badly and this is really on my mind a lot to the point that I can't even write plotless fic. :(

:D

oh, man, cheating at art is so much fun! and I'm learning valuable highlight/lowlight techniques, so painting over pics is TOTALLY VALID.

today I did a random Burberry model and Frank Iero. I really, really like how Frank came out.

( painted peoples! )