today's to-do

*doc with mom
*coding, whee!
*at least one episode of GK
*dishes, woes.
*big ole pot of copycat panera mac & cheese
*big ole pot of collards
*STEAK OMG

(making a list means I'm more likely to do these things, right?)

ETA: strikeouts, because right now my fridge is very very full and making mac & cheese + collards will result in a lot of leftovers I have no room for. unless I froze them. which I don't want to do. so for dinner tonight I will still make steak, but I will pair it with small sides - mashed potatoes and carrots, I think.

ETA2: have been to doc, but mom has said she'd rather have a sub sandwich than steak for dinner. I am disappointed, but she's right in that we shouldn't let the sandwich (which I snagged from the deli dept) go off.

basically, I just need to do some dishes today, and fold some clothes, and the rest is gravy.

right round like a record baby

It's pretty amazing that somehow after all this time, I've never actually made or used a 'physical health' tag. I have my 'my back hurts' tag, but nothing about any other physical complaints, just my pain. Huh.

But then I have to add the 'mental health' tag, because it's tied together.

VERTIGO, my friends, has come upon me once again. (not Hitchcock's kind)

I've had bouts of it over the years (the worst case of it I ever had was shortly after 9/11), and it's always because of some kind of upset in my emotions. If I cry too hard, BOOM, I get dizzy, and the dizziness might last for days. Usually it's manageable, but the previously mentioned 2001 case was debilitating. I could not move from my bed without assistance, and when I didn't get that assistance (thanks, asshole!) I ended up crawling on my knees to the bathroom in order to throw up. Nice, huh? (it should be mentioned that I was in my 3rd trimester and 9/11 was also Dad's bday, and he'd died a couple of months before. so there were many negative factors contributing to my state)

This time around, it's not nearly as bad. (and I am SO grateful for that!) But it has been going on for a few days now, and it isn't getting better.

If it gets any worse, I'll go to the doc and get some Antivert. Or tests. Or whatever. Sometimes it goes away on its own and I really don't have the money for another doctor visit this month. Or more meds. I know there are some exercises I can try at home to maybe lessen the problem, but UGH. They make you dizzy in order to make you less dizzy. I'm trying NOT to be dizzy, you know? :( I'm such a coward.