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I don't even know how to describe myself right now. mild rapid cycling? idk. it's not whiplashy for me, though my mom has definitely commented on it. I'm trying to concentrate on reading and taking care of meg, and having something to cling to helps, but ugh. yeah.

I really want someone to snuggle with. my dog is kinda stinky to let into bed with me, or else we'd be there right now.

sudden spasm in my back, please go away.

oh, yeah, SSA wants me to have a physical exam. I don't know why. maybe because of my back? I did complain about it to the psychologist but I didn't think anything would come of it.

Can't concentrate on the Night Vale stuff, but it seems interesting and maybe I'll come back to it.

I am INSANELY JEALOUS of everyone going to Vividcon. :) Have fun, you guys! I haven't been able to attend a con in a long time. maybe one day I'll be able to do that again. maybe not. idk.

I have vivid fantasies of being a total blank slate and being able to move somewhere with less trees and somehow find where I belong.

allergies from some weird new detergent. ugh.

electric bill fiasco over. they have been paid. however, jerry still hasn't sent me the (AFO sock) money he promised and I'm stressed over that

I had so much more to say but now I am tired