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[green]

Ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

There's a hymn I used to sing in church as a kid that I keep remembering this line from: I am tired, I am weak, I am worn.

My bank account is overdrawn about -250.00 right now. my Paypal is here if you can/want to help. But that is not the reason for this post. (edit: I am looking better financially now thanks to some very wonderful friends and readers.)

I am just so depressed. I know the seasonal sads have a lot to do with it, but it's also being away from my sons (one doesn't speak to me and has started being verbally abusive to my mom so that's going 'great' places soon) (the other one is stuck in Texas for the time being and can't come to Christmas here). My daughter turned 29 yesterday and I'm just worn out from taking care of her. I love her so much. But I am tired.

My mom is getting older and less able to help around the house and also now I'm helping her more than myself anymore.

I was doing better but between the holiday and the financial problems, the depression came back and hit me in the face. And the backs of my knees. And my spine.

Comments

[trobadora]

*HUGS*

[green]

Thank you. I need hugs so bad lol

*hugs back lots*

[lunabee34]

Hugs

Caregiving is so hard.

[green]

It honestly doesn't usually bother me but sometimes I just am so tired and I see my whole life since I was 17 has been all about Meg and I just want to run away. lolsob

*hugs* thank you.

[lunabee34]

I'm so sorry. I can't imagine what relentless caregiving on that scale would be like. *hugs*

[avrelia]

You are an awesome person, and all your friends know it.

[green]

thank you so much 💚💚💚💚

[adafrog]

{{{hugs}}}

[green]

hugs! 💚💚

[shipperslist]

It always feels so lame and inadequate to tell you you're in my thoughts and I wish things got easier or more bearable or any such. I wish there was more I could do. I wish your life would give you a break or that you'd have a chance just to breathe without worrying about things. 💜