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green ([personal profile] green) wrote2019-02-09 08:22 am

why I'm broke.

on tumblr I wanted to go into a long rant/explanation about why I needed to ask for money but I didn't because I was afraid some asshole would try to pick it apart.

but I guess I can kinda explain here. my medicaid has flipped around to a different managed care provider and now I need new doctor authorizations before they will pay for certain things. in the meantime I'm left paying cash. and then there was my regular eye doctor who stopped taking medicaid altogether. so I had to pay for an eye exam* and glasses (at least I was able to order the glasses from zenni so I didn't have to pay a lot). I had to pay for my pain meds this month. I have no idea what's going to happen when the big, expensive med I take comes up in about a week - it's way more than I can pay for out of pocket (the last time I checked, a 30 day supply was $1400). hopefully the doctor will have enough samples of Vraylar to hold me over until the new medicaid managed care provider decides I can have it after all.

we will not even get into the stress I'm having because 'what if they decide not to pay for it?'

I am switching internet providers because the one we have now (CenturyLink) sucks HARD. they have outages all the time, sometimes just for an hour, but sometimes for days at a time. so I'm getting xfinity. I don't have good credit (or any credit, tbh) so I had to put down a deposit for the hardware they sent to get me set up. I haven't switched over yet because I'm waiting on someone to come out here and install something on my house so I can use it. but that was another expense.

my mom's computer died and I got her a new chromebook. she's paying me back but couldn't right away, so that was a little over $200.

we are still paying for the new heat and air unit that we had to replace last summer.

we are still paying for repairs on the house and property because of hurricane Michael. these are things the insurance didn't cover.

I don't qualify for SNAP, so I buy all the groceries with cash.

like, I'm on a fixed income with my SSI. I don't have all this money. I've tried to set up a Patreon in the past but 1. it freaked me out and gave me so much anxiety I couldn't stand it and 2. I hate making any kind of money off fannish activities and it didn't feel right

thanks for reading this.


*I can't just go anywhere. I need to go to familiar places. so going to a new eye doctor who DOES take my medicaid when I've already psyched myself up to go see the familiar one is haaaaaaaaaard. too hard, in this case. my anxiety and agoraphobia suck donkey balls.



TL;DR - I need money and my paypal is anthony.melissa@rocketmail.com
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[personal profile] loligo 2019-02-09 03:08 pm (UTC)(link)
Illinois just switched from state-run Medicaid to MCO's this year, and it has been an absolute nightmare for everyone. One patient's insulin prescription got denied because the dosage was "too high"... WTF? It's not like insulin is a recreational drug! That's how much insulin it takes to keep their blood sugar under control!

Sending a little money your way... and if they end up denying your meds, I could ask the case managers at work if they have any solutions, because they deal with this stuff for our patients all day long.
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[personal profile] loligo 2019-02-19 04:05 am (UTC)(link)
(PS, sorry that ended up taking a week! My husband had changed our Paypal password and everything was so crazy this week, it took forever to get him and my laptop in the same place to fix it.)
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[personal profile] shadowhive 2019-02-09 04:12 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh no, that sounds like a nightmare! I hope things get a little better for you soon because all of that sounds awful
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[personal profile] cesperanza 2019-02-09 04:27 pm (UTC)(link)
Ugh, I hate when expenses all crash in at once! Will write under separate cover, mwah.
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[personal profile] shipperslist 2019-02-09 05:43 pm (UTC)(link)
From this side of the globe, the US health care system sounds just... Uh. Not going there. We've talked about this so many times already. Hope you'll get better soon.
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[personal profile] shipperslist 2019-02-09 06:11 pm (UTC)(link)
❤️
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[personal profile] wynnebat 2019-02-10 12:44 am (UTC)(link)
I'm sorry to hear that and I hope things get better for you! It sounds like a horribly stressful time
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[personal profile] alee_grrl 2019-02-10 12:46 am (UTC)(link)
Damn it, our system is so fucking broken. So sorry you're going through this. ❤️
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[personal profile] alee_grrl 2019-02-10 01:10 am (UTC)(link)
You're very welcome. 💕
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[personal profile] anoyo 2019-02-12 05:42 pm (UTC)(link)
Do you have any other ways to accept money, rather than PayPal? I keep getting hacked through PayPal, so I've completely stopped using it.
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[personal profile] anoyo 2019-02-12 07:20 pm (UTC)(link)
Okay! *hugs* I'm glad it's going better for you.