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green ([personal profile] green) wrote2013-09-05 10:14 am

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I would not wish depression, anxiety, or BPD on my worst enemy. not that I have any enemies (that I know of! I probably have seekrit fandom enemies who hate me because once about 8 years ago I was an inadvertent asshole in a wank about potatoes).

HOWEVER, today is a glorious day. (yesterday was pretty good, too)

I am hypomanic, I guess. I am trying not to think very hard about it because while it's kind of a false and brain chemistry-induced cycle thing, it feels so good. It feels so normal and natural and I wish I could feel like this all the time.

But it won't stick around and I have to recognize that. I should do the things I want to do while I'm able to do them, because I won't be able to do them for very long. Knowing that makes me sad, but ... whatever. Right now I feel amazing and I'm going to try to enjoy it while I can.

It's a brand new year! I have hope.