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I had a good rant worked up about my mom getting mad at me for not being able to control my mood swings, but then I got depressed again and ran out of steam.

I have been writing! I have almost 4k of my TW BB! I am getting stuck more than I'd like, but it shakes loose and gets unstuck more often than not. At the moment I am stuck but it's not a sticky stuck, just a 'wait until meg goes to bed and try again' kind of stuck.

I do have bad news, though. It's mental illness stuff, so feel free to skip:

I am rapid cycling. Rapidly. It's freaking me out. Everything I've been reading recently about rapid cycling is talking about change in mood happening within months or weeks or days, but I am talking minute by minute shit. I will be calling the doctor to discuss this with him tomorrow.

Also on the agenda for tomorrow: call the attorney and explain why I cancelled my disability physical yesterday. Hint: I AM APPLYING FOR DISABILITY ON THE BASIS THAT I HAVE AGORAPHOBIA AND DO NOT DO WELL WITH LEAVING THE HOUSE. >:(

I hope it's okay.

The worst thing about tomorrow is that I MUST go to the store to purchase groceries. The last two trips resulted in me almost passing out. Heh. :(

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Good luck.

Have you had a change in your meds recently? Because I was rapid cycling like crazy when I was on the wrong anti-depressants. My doc wouldn't believe the meds were causing it at first, but then read up on it and realised it was true. He changed my meds and I haven't been rapid cycling since. Maybe you're going through something like that?

Good luck for the disability claim! *HUGS*

yeah, I just started depakote last month and that might be doing it. otherwise it's been good, I guess? I don't know. I made a call and I'll be seeing my regular doc tomorrow.

<333 thank you for the encouragement, bb

Hope the doc will figure out what's wrong!

And anytime, sweetie! <3<3<3 *big hugs and squishes*

When I rapid cycle it's usually three or four times a day which is much faster than most of the literature on rapid cycling says. So, I feel your pain.

I'm sorry things are hard, I hope they get better.

*sends you ALL the good thoughts and good luck*

<333