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my zazzle store

I have been making patterns! and learning Adobe Illustrator! and stuff! that's about all I have been doing. but I am really liking my zazzle store and plan to do a lot with it. right now I am just doing a couple of cool patterns, but if anyone has ideas for shirts or the like, let me know and I will see what I can do.

check out my store and leave me nice feedback. :)

I'm using Illustrator so much lately and barely touch any other programs. I really really love it.

I had therapy today. One of the things I have to work on is telling myself I am worthy of love and respect. I've been telling myself I am worthless for a good fifteen or twenty years or something like that, so it's difficult to get out of that rut. Anyone else have that problem? Or have you had it in the past and managed to get over it? When I was in therapy for PTSD and other DV-related problems, I did really well, but apparently the old ways of thinking have come creeping back. My depression has been really bad lately because of it. Also, fighting with mom is never fun. :\

Love you all.

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[gloss]

Those patterns are adorable! I really love the dinosaur Ipad case, especially.

Anyone else have that problem?
GOD YES. I don't think I'll ever be rid of those mental scripts; all I can do is "hear" the shit they're saying about me, and then remind myself it's a lie. Sometimes it works, a lot of the time it doesn't.

You ARE worthy of lots and lots of love and respect. You're smart, generous, and very talented. ♥

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Yeah, I'm supposed to recognize when I say these things to myself, then change it to something positive. Sounds simple, but not easy.

Thanks, bb. ♥

[akamine_chan]

You = awesome.

I think most of us have that problem, of having that voice that says we're worthless and unlovable. We can ignore it for a while, but it's hard to drown it out.../o\

*covers ears and sings "la la la" at the top of my voice*

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*hugs tight*