hope is the thing with feathers

Wed, 08 Apr 2026 00:33:03 GMT

omg I swear this is what did it. My life has changed over the past week, I feel like a new person, and I feel crazy about it because I swear it's because I splurged on a new soft throw blanket. Something about touching that blanket healed me, y'all. It's a UGG Euphoria blanket, and I spent like 60 bucks on it. I didn't really have the money but I splurged anyway, and it is SO SOFT, and it does something to my brain. Like it tickles my brain when I rub my hands on it. This needs to be studied.

I doubt new improved me will last forever, but I'm doing what I can while I'm feeling this way.

Believe me, I know how crazy it sounds that a blanket has 'cured' my depression.

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update

Sun, 05 Apr 2026 22:30:02 GMT

Hi, all!

My mood has improved, and I've had energy for the past 3 days. Out of nowhere. I actually got some much-needed cleaning done, and it's been very beneficial to my mental health. I've been eating healthier leading up to my first Ozempic shot, so that might have something to do with it, but it hasn't been a HUGE change yet, just little stuff. But I guess it could have still made a difference. idk, I just feel great. It's so weird!

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Sun, 01 Mar 2026 17:58:24 GMT

working on a new book. today I rewrote my opening. it's better now, I think? still not saying exactly what I want it to, but it's better.

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Wed, 21 Jan 2026 21:22:13 GMT

I was already having a baaad day and now I just found out that Meg's neurologist isn't going to see her anymore. She's been going to him for 20 years. I keep crying ugh

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dental woes

Mon, 19 Jan 2026 22:10:29 GMT

I made a post about this on Tumblr, but not here yet. Here goes.

I started a GoFundMe for dental expenses.

Last year, I broke one of my teeth, and since it's a front tooth, there's more to it than just pulling it out the way my insurance wants (and that's the only way they will pay for it, just if I have them yank it out). I went to a dentist I'm comfortable with (big deal for my anxiety and agoraphobia) and had an exam and got a treatment plan, but I haven't been back since I couldn't actually afford it. I thought I had time to save up, but then there were holidays and I did not save at all. Except now the tooth is infected, and I need to get it taken care of very soon.

I've been having some very lean months. Everything is so expensive. I don't know what to do, really, except ask for help yet again.

The GFM is specifically for the tooth (which is going to cost me about $2600 over 3 visits), but I also have a cashapp ($beingagreenmother) and ko-fi for grocery and bill money.

Thank you for listening.

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#4

Wed, 07 Jan 2026 18:57:12 GMT

(I am still working on #3)

for snowflake_challenge

Challenge #4: Rec Your Last Page

Any website that you like, be it fanfiction, art, social media, or something a bit more eccentric!

This is what I've been looking at today:

Massachusetts "Name a Snowplow" Contest Winners!
School children came up with these wonderful (and punny!) snowplow names, which will be used this winter (2025/2026)
My favorites: Master Snowda and Thaw Patrol

How to Create a Powerful Character Arc by Jerry Jenkins.
I was looking at this as a quick reference for a post I was writing of my own about plotting while pantsing. Hopefully a future post for getyourwordsout. It's a pretty clear guide for getting started with writing character arcs, as it says on the tin.

(by the way, pledging for 2026 ends January 15, so you don't have much more time if you want to join in a wonderful writing community with GYWO!)

Also, right now I have a tab open with my 5soulmates prompt table! I haven't started writing yet, but I've got some ideas percolating.

Another tab I have open is the deterweek themes list. I'm going to be writing one story with whimsicalmeerkat and one solo. At least that's the plan!

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5soulmates table

Tue, 06 Jan 2026 18:45:46 GMT

This is my prompt table for 5soulmates

Table #0 - Custom
01. soulmates "live" each other's lives in their minds when they bond	02. empathic connection	03. first words	04. only one of the reincarnated soulmates remembers their past life	05. accidental soulbond

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Sun, 04 Jan 2026 03:10:16 GMT

just spent two and a half hours setting up a new phone for my mom and getting all her new contacts in it and everything...

I'm EXHAUSTED from this. she was so anxious about it and over my shoulder the whole time. omg. OMG. I need to sleep for a WEEK now.

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#2

Sat, 03 Jan 2026 20:37:34 GMT

Challenge #2: Pets of Fandom

Loosely defined! Post about your pets, pets from your canon, anything you want!

Gotta say my favorite 'pet' from my fandoms is Diefenbaker from Due South. But I'm gonna go with a more obscure one and then some from my own stories, instead.

Prada is Lydia Martin's canon dog from Teen Wolf. He's a six-pound black and white Papillon. He was onscreen once (in season 2's Frenemy) and then mentioned a couple more times later on.

I love animals, but I don't write original pets too often. I have in the past, though. Let's see if I can remember...

( behind a cut because I include snippets of my stories plus pet pics )

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#1

Thu, 01 Jan 2026 23:48:08 GMT

Challenge #1

The Icebreaker Challenge: Introduce yourself. Tell us why you're doing the challenge, and what you hope to gain from it.

Post your answer to today’s challenge in your own space and leave a comment in this post saying you did it.

Hi, I'm greenie (or Green, if you want to be formal-polite), and I'm a 47-year-old weirdo who is back once again to play with the Snowflake Challenge!! Wooooo!!

Maybe we can get to know each other a little this month as we skip along the challenges together. (Hopefully, I'm skipping along and not outright skipping any like usual. Forgive me if that happens lol)

I love Snowflake because it gives me things to do and be excited about here on Dreamwidth, which is a place I love but don't spend enough time with.

Also, Snowflake frequently reminds me what's so great about fandom and fannishness to begin with!

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Sun, 28 Dec 2025 19:52:04 GMT

I really, REALLY need new glasses. I cannot fucking see. Not well, anyway. But we have so many other things going on between Mom and Meg that it's like I barely have a chance to breathe, let alone do things for myself.

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Sun, 28 Dec 2025 19:46:52 GMT

Can't wait for Snowflake!

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Mon, 22 Dec 2025 17:01:42 GMT

"I'm going to start posting on my DW more often!"

*looks at the camera like they're in The Office*

So I felt good for about 2 1/2 days with the new antidepressant. I think I'm better than I was before I took it, but not a huge amount.

I have so much to do and I'm not doing it.

Tomorrow is Meg's birthday. She's going to be 30. It's so hard to think of myself with a 30 yo kid.

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Tue, 16 Dec 2025 23:57:53 GMT

I was all geared up to talk about The Game Awards, but now I'm mostly meh. I don't have anything new or exciting to say about it. Like with the actual awards? I'm not one of the cynics. I don't think E33 should have won fewer awards. It's just that good.

As for the announcements, I'm most excited about Exodus and the KOTOR follow-up, Fate of the Old Republic. Which I know won't be around for a few more years, since it was more of an announcement for hiring and funding use (and to get us RPG fans fired up wayyy ahead of time). Not at all impressed with the 'big reveal' they saved until last. A live-service hero shooter? THAT'S your biggest announcement? Yeah, fuck that.

I haven't yet played the new 'Thank You' DLC for E33 yet since I um. Started a new game? I can't help myself! Also hoping to play Dispatch soon. And I picked up Control from PS+.

I have about 2k of my epilogue/sequel to my FTH fic and I really hope I can finish it in time for the FTH deadline. If I don't, my recipient has already said it's okay but still. I was HOPING.

The new antidepressant is still working well! The only thing against it is the joint pain. I've got a pretty bad elbow out of it. But I'm used to pain so I'll take that if it means less to no depression.

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Tue, 09 Dec 2025 11:51:56 GMT

There are so many things I want to do. I'm not getting younger, so I should just quit procrastinating.

One thing is that I want to get through my TBR list! Or at least whittle it down. My reading has dropped off dramatically, but I still keep buying books. WTF, self. I signed up for Storygraph a while ago, but now I'm serious about it! Got to keep up with what I'm doing. (username greeniegreen)

I keep wasting time on Tumblr--not that I don't love Tumblr, but I could be doing things other than staying up to date on the latest in meme culture.

And I have so many WIPs. *flails* And I REALLY need to finish the epilogue to the fic I'm posting. Before I get to the end of the chapters I have!

One thing I definitely need is new glasses. I can't even see the screen well enough to make icons anymore, and I used to love that. :( I can read just fine, but small details are fuzzy and I can't make graphics/icons with fuzzy eyes.

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love!

Tue, 02 Dec 2025 20:25:42 GMT

✨ holiday love meme 2025 ✨
my thread here

I haven't done a love meme in so long, it really takes me back. I would love to see y'all's names on there, too! (I did spy two of you, but I know there's more of you here...) But even if you don't make a comment with your name on it, I would like to say I LOVE YOU. I appreciate those of you who've stuck around even when I've only barely remembered to post and rarely comment on anyone else's posts.

I'm gonna try to do better! I mean it this time! I miss the community here so much. Even being in a different fandom than most of you, I still want you in my life and want to be in yours.

Speaking of fandom, I have started posting my Fandom Trumps Hate fic (I think I mentioned this before), and I have 4 chapters up already. I'm hoping to get it posted in full before the Steter Secret Santa fics go live, so I'm putting the chapters up at a quick pace.

But I haven't written the epilogue yet, eep! But anyway, if anyone is interested in reading, here it is:

Painting the Night With Sun (Teen Wolf, Peter Hale/Stiles Stilinski, Explicit)
There's more to being a Spark than just powerful magic, and dragons don't come from eggs. Stiles has a lot to learn from his new mentor, but he and Peter have to escape the Wild Hunt first.

Featuring Steter romance, a magical castle, daring rescues, found family, and a cat with wings.

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Fri, 28 Nov 2025 19:36:02 GMT

I literally feel at least 5x better than usual. I don't know if it's because the weather is good or because my hormones are just right, or because the new med is working. I've been on it for 2 weeks, so it's probably the med. WOW. The difference is so striking.

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Wed, 26 Nov 2025 16:00:13 GMT

The new med so far seems okay. I'm not as easily annoyed/angered, is that a thing? In a couple days I go on the largest dose. So far I've been gradually going up.

I hate being the only person in charge of cooking. Tomorrow's gonna suck

My second beta finished with my FTH fic. Now I've got to get my first beta feeling better.

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Wed, 12 Nov 2025 19:33:00 GMT

I can't keep saying 'I miss the COMMUNITY of fandom' and then not do anything to contribute to/foster said community.

I'm writing, though. Lots of writing. I've been working on this one fic for about 6-7 months now. Just hit 50k on it. I'm hoping the first draft is almost done. And then I will have lots and lots of editing. But I have faith in this story. I think it's going to be good.

Two goats from across the street came to visit me today while I was taking out the garbage. I love goats! But I did not know these goats, so that made me wary. Another neighbor came along and tempted them back home with Cheez-Its.

Right now there is a physical therapist here in my home with my mother. Mom needs help. She's not using the walker she got, but then again there aren't many places she wants to go where she can use it. She wants to be outside, but the yard is bumpy and the wheels on the walker/rollator can't handle the terrain.

We've also got a companion from an agency who comes in twice a month who can take mom to places or pick up meds or vacuum and dust the house. It takes a lot of pressure off me, but it's only one day every other week. (So far)

Ummmm not much else going on. Meg is doing well. I'm hanging in there. We're alive.

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Tue, 06 May 2025 15:21:54 GMT

It is my birthdayyyyy

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Fri, 11 Apr 2025 06:28:52 GMT

last night I was able to sleep. but tonight, Meg is up. wide awake. she's like this maybe 5 days/nights a week. it's hell.

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Thu, 13 Mar 2025 00:09:09 GMT

I've been writing! I participated as a creator in the Fandom Trumps Hate auction and now I'm working with the winner to create something awesome. It's a time travel Teen Wolf fic, because there can never be enough of them haha

I recently bought a big notebook and some colorful gel pens and it's my writing journal now, as opposed to my journal-journal/diary.

I'm getting better sleep since we changed Meg's meds back to twice a day rather than once a day and she's no longer staying up all night or waking at 2am every morning and not allowing ANYONE ELSE to sleep ever. So that's good.

That's about it.

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Sat, 18 Jan 2025 15:04:18 GMT

posting this to my DW because I don't feel like being reblogged on Tumblr.

I think one of the things I'm feeling over the Neil Gaiman thing is grief. I gave my oldest son some of his works, and it was a thing I did for him on several birthdays and Christmases. Now I just... I don't know. Here was this act of love, wanting to share interests and art with my son, and it feels so gross now. Tainted. But then again that seems like I'm making it all about my relationship with my son and not the pain and trauma of the victims. So then I feel guilt.

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snowflake challenge #6 (due south episode: North)

Sat, 11 Jan 2025 18:20:46 GMT

snowflake challenge 6: Share your favourite piece of original canon.

North is an episode about friendship and forgiveness and father/sonhood. About feeling alone until you've got your buddy. God, it's so good. It's like this little encapsulation of what the show means to me.
If you never watch any other episode of Due South, watch North.
(edited to add) Ray and Fraser are in a plane crash and then stranded in the wilderness.
Fraser is temporary blind so he has to rely on Ray (Vecchio). The ghost of Ray's father tells him to 'cut [Fraser] loose'. But Ray is a better man than his father was.
There's a whole plot about catching a fugitive, too, but that's not as important as...
There's SINGING. There's singing while RAY CARRIES FRASER over his back. It's just wonderful.
It's a wonderful episode.

You can watch it for free on youtube.

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snowflake challenge #5

Thu, 09 Jan 2025 20:57:03 GMT

for snowflake_challenge 5: Talk about what has improved in your life thanks to fandom.

My life before fandom was so different, but a lot has to do with going through a divorce around the same time I entered fandom, so it's hard to differentiate between what good things are because of fandom and what's because of the divorce!

So I'll just say: I have the most wonderful friends. Many, many friends. Lots of people I've known for decades, and some just for a few years, friends who come and go but are always there, you know? Most importantly, there's my BFF. I met my bestie majoline through fandom (through a friending meme here on DW, to be exact) and I've never had a more perfect blessing in my life that wasn't my actual flesh and blood children. I'm not going to spend the whole post gushing about her, BUT I COULD. We talk every day, share the big stuff and the minutia, the ups and the downs. There are lots of downs sometimes, but we support each other. She's awesome. Before fandom, I never had a friend like her.

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