green @ 2014-06-15T13:40:00

2014-06-15T18:41:28Z

oh, hey! it's Father's Day and I'm not freaking out! :D

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"When you hear hoofbeats, think horses, not zebras."

2014-01-30T15:32:28Z

does thinking about the past ever lead to anything good? usually I try not to dwell unless I'm forced to by the psych industry (*snort*) but today I'm having insights and it's making me angry.

I don't want to be angry. though angry is probably better than apathetic. I don't know. is it? am I coming out of the depression, or is it getting worse?

today I'm mad at everyone who was around me when I was a young teenager and first coming into my Powers. (again, I snort. I mean the brain weasels.) I'm mad at them for not thinking zebras when they heard the hoofbeats. Which is irrational of me, I KNOW it is. I guess you see a kid whose parents just divorced, whose father is a vet with PTSD and a host of other abuse-causing shit, and you think 'oh, of course, depression and mild trauma/confusion' not 'burgeoning yet permanent mood and anxiety disorders'. But the crap in my head only ever got worse, and it feels like the folks who were supposed to notice I was drowning - my mom, my teachers, my psychologist - fell down on the job and left me wide open for the fiasco to happen.

Heh. Calling my marriage a 'fiasco' instead of 'a decade-long prison' or 'carnival of abuse' has got to be progress, right? :P

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happy father's day :(

2009-06-21T17:45:07Z

( cut so as not to bum anyone out )

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hope is the thing with feathers

green @ 2014-06-15T13:40:00

"When you hear hoofbeats, think horses, not zebras."

happy father's day :(